I don’t know why I hardly arrange some words lately. Not the exact lately but since college is over, I never have time to post even some garbage. Bustle kills my time and energy. I mostly feel like a baby girl who needs to go to bed before 11 pm. I feel my eyes so weary and always feel like I lack of sleep while I have rested just like a normal person approximately 7 hours. We have been halfway being in Ramadhan month. We are getting closer to the D-Day of victory all moslems have been waiting for. I loose 5 kilos just in two weeks doing fasting but I never planned it, really. I loose my appetite since the first day of it and here it is, 5 kilos have gone from my body. But it’d be fine since Lebaran is about to come and some my favorite meals seem so kind to welcome me.
We have also passed halfway in this 2016. I don’t have a certain word for this kind of year. God has blessed me like never stop since last year. God gives me so many things more than I expected. Though I also felt so shocked lately because sort of thing.
It’s not God who never lets us learn. It’s not God who is never be with us going through the hard times. It’s not God who never makes us strong as a human. I always believe that everything happens for a reason. God insists us going through what happened and that's our job to decipher the lesson. We gotta be strong for that. Strength and sincerity will never be with us if we never be able to control ourself. When our mind is so dumb to steer where we wanna go, that’s where we find a failure. Being acceptance and really get prepared for the worst case are some keys to minimize the pain and tears. Human being thinks using logical brain.I still have healthy brain, luckily. It makes me able to think very deep and logic. Though sometimes I still depart from my imagination, but I will always re-check it with the possible and acceptable thought, pull out some red lines, and try to make some points. I never let my imagination only to do my act. I always and will always use my sense and conscious mind to avoid any fallacy. While at the end, I always have my reason to all my acts. So, when something finally didn’t work, I don’t wanna blame anyone. We have portion to do the wrong things. Everybody made mistake and I don’t wanna call anyone dumb, not even myself. Maybe I just didn’t think precisely and consider inexactly but well, back to the theory that everything happens for a reason, my fella.
Ah, I miss this time when only me, music, and sound of my typing keyboard being here. Today is Friday night, my most favorite time point among the other cause I know I still have much time to relax my mind, body, and soul. Breathe Again from Sara Barailles never gets me tired for this time.
